Every now and again, I feel restless, like something really big is just about to happen. OK, I guess I’m always a bit restless…but I don’t always feel like something really big is about to happen.
To borrow the words of Erwin McManus, who most likely borrowed them from someone before him, I am a futurist. I love thinking about the future and wondering about it. Dreaming.
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Early last summer (2007) I went out to lunch with my good friend, Ted. We work near each other and met at Potbelly’s for a sandwich. As it often does, our conversation turned to what God was doing in our lives. I remember this conversation like it was yesterday. I told him that I was fairly certain that Lana and I were on the verge of something really big and that God was preparing us for it. “What do you think it is?” Ted asked. I had no idea and told him so.
Literally a few days later, we were told that Carmen probably had Tay Sachs, a rare and fatal disease.
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Sometimes I get so caught up in the future that I forget about today. That can be a problem. As McManus says, that’s just dreaming and dreaming alone accomplishes nothing (my own distorted interpretation).
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I am there again. Restless and perhaps on the verge of something big. Only this time, it seems as though it’s still a little bit off in the distance. Lana really doesn’t like it when I am there because it can seem as though I am bordering on depression. Perhaps I am. Depressed because whatever it is, it’s there and not here. I think most people call this discontentment. Perhaps it is.
To be sure, I recognize fully that we are already in the midst of something huge. But I can’t help but believe that we are again on the verge of something big. Something big…and something different. Once again, I do not know what it is. But I am preparing. Today. Here is what I am doing:
- Praying like crazy
- Narrowing the focus of what I do each day/week
- Eliminating distractions
- Seeking input from Lana and a few others
What do you do when you feel like God might be whispering in your ear?